Figuring It Out

I am thankful that, when we follow God with everything, He pushes us till we hit a day like today; when I've just gotta step back and say, "Who am I?"  We are so fortunate to have all of the experiences in our lives, and some of us don't take the time to realize how all of that makes us who we are.  I am thankful that God shapes us.

Today I hit the wall that made me stop and realize something about relationships; I strongly believe the person you're in a relationship with should be able to naturally bring out the best in you, but how can they bring out the best in you if you don't even know who you are to begin with to show them where to start?  Before God blesses us with true lifelong best friends, spouses, connections within family, network partners, doesn't God deserve the honor of us firmly grasping the canvas of who He has made us to be so that who He places in our lives can be the paints that form us into who we can become?  What if the answer to our questions of, "Why isn't my prayer being answered?", is simply that God knows we're not ready for whatever it is that we are praying for to shape us even further into His likeness?

So I've begun the process of coming up with a definition for myself, and one of my first discoveries is that I am kind of boring when it comes to hanging out with people.  True Facts: I'm not good at raising the bar of excitement when I enter a room, I think too hard about how to start a conversation with someone, and I make myself feel like I'm doing a lot by pacing around.  What's wild is that God has placed people in my life that have pushed me to step out of my comfort zone, start conversations without thinking about it, and, instead of just thinking about all the things I could be doing at all the places I pace around, actually doing the things my mind brainstorms about.  I have never really stopped to consider how those people have helped me grow.

Have you ever noticed how good you feel when someone comes up to you and starts up a really good conversation with you?  Why is that?  It's because they actually value you.  This crazy balance starts happening when someone shows an interest in who you are, because it also makes you want to show an interest in who they are, and then both of you start asking questions that keep the whole thing going. 

Now I'm just rambling, but that's what "Just A Sprinkle" is all about!

Every day we are learning new things about ourselves, but my desire is that I glorify God with who He has created me to be by embracing who I am, so that I don't answer another question of "Who are you, really?" with "I don't know", and if I am this important to take the time to define, so is everyone else.  Every one of us have stories to tell.